Blissful Desires

Holidays

Its been a very long time since i last blogged and it feels kinda weird blogging again…hahah… Life is the same as always… only difference is that i am much fatter now….hahah… so fat i broke my study chair while spinning in it….hahah…. okies enough about me… 

A few things happen amongst my friends, some kinda fun and happy while some are really sad and disappointing… Some stay and some goes…. the ones that stay are the ones you can all true friends, the ones that goes are just empty beings who is not worth you time. I’m not trying to be mean or anything but if you considered me as a friend, you would at least weigh my friendship a little more than a few pinheads.

Now that its finally out of my system……… i can enjoy some manga and anime….hehe

This year Hari Raya was much more fun that i had anticipated…. much better than the past years…. This year i got to see some of my very long lost cousins whom have not talk to or seen for years due to some family misunderstanding… you see everyone, adults can sometimes be very childish and stubborn…. I really just don’t get it in those who fights over money… i mean, if you borrow some then just return it, and those who lend let the ones who borrow some time to return! they can possibly give all the money back the next day… geez…. i really have some idiotic relatives…. can’t really understand the issues over money… if its for survival then its fine, but for holiday trips?? what the fuck!! -_-lll

Okies…. this blog turned out to be quite hateful…hahah…. well then…. i’ll blog again soon…hehe… if I’m bored… (why bother? no one reads…hahah… its been dead for soooooo loooooooong….hahah…spider webs all over the blog….lol)

It’s been a long time

Okie, the reason i stop blogging for a while was that i could not fix my current blog… don’t really know how to use it u see…lol… so i just kinda forgot about it… well i think its okie if its like this… I just finish my brown-gold grading and it was super fun and kinda tiring cos i was having a flu and very bad cough and sore throat… slightly feverish last night so i went to bad early, in fear that i would die out during grading…hahah… ouh btw, i am excited because i am going out with my fwens on tues to somewhere far… far like out of this country…hahah…weee… blog again soon…

Working… and interview??

I really cannot believe that working at Hilton hotel was such a tiring thing. I mean at first it was very boring because the chefs-in-charge was really confusing us. So we just kinda tried our best to go around and help as much as we can but ended up just sitting and doing nothing. The chefs there are really nice and sweet and takes really good care of us but they just don’t give clear instructions and end up repeating themselves again. I mean how can you give instructions if you yourself am not clear with the plan either. But after that was really fun because that was when the action began. Dinner service was super fun because i got to do a lot of things like running around and plating and re-stocking and everything. I felt like i was useful you know. So at the end of the day, i was really tired…lol… but had fun…

On the way home, Wei Hao told  me that there will be in interview at Bukit Merah for the SIP Spring Singapore. I mean, i am so totally not prepared for it… i can’t believe how short notice it was… i am not ready and have no confident at all… this is really bad… and plus, i don’t know how to get there… sobx… maybe i should give it a try, who knows, it might be a good thing?… who am i kidding… my gosh… i shall decide later… keep you posted…

I hope you see this cos I don’t have the heart to tell it in your face.

I really can’t believe the things that some people can do! I mean, its not like everyone is getting everything back, we each have our losses and some of us can only get a tiny portion from it and we are already satisfied by it. So how could you still squeeze that tiny portion from us and still not regret doing it? I mean are you still a human being doing this to your own friend who has tolerated all your horrible personalities and mood swings. A normal human being would try to compensate and give in at times, to understand their position and help them. Not to make use of them for your own selfish desires and certainly not to harm, anger or loss their trust. How many times have you notice that each of us is trying our best to forgive you and yet we can’t because each time we are about to forgive, you do something to offend us that’s beyond our limits. It’s just too much to handle and for god sake try and change yourself, or soon enough you will find yourself without any friends if that is you still have some.

Do you not notice the times that we are angry at you? It’s too obvious that people who not within our group notices it but not you. Sometimes I just wander why a simple apology is so difficult to say? The longer you drag an apology, the harder it gets to say it.

If you read this and feel that tiny sense of guilt some where inside or your conscience is speaking to you, then you should start practicing your apologies and do it soon, because we as humans do not have long to live.